Wish life would fall into place

I feel like I am drifting, I dont really have a place to go, but drifting along...hoping to grab on to something to pull me to shore. Life has turned for the better recently but I still cant pull my head above water.

I seem to be in a bit of a slump. I cant seem to motivate myself. There are goals that I have set for myself and I am not even on the road to achieve them! Everyday I wake up and think "today will be the day" and then I roll over and go back to sleep. Why? I dont understand why I am doing this.

Running is so important to me and I cant force myself to hit the pavement. Today I realized that I cant keep on living in this manner. I will not allow myself to continue with excuse after excuse. I need to come up with a better plan, a plan that will force me to get up and moving. What more motivation do I need?

I work in a homeless shelter for Gods sake! I watch people day after day whose lives are falling apart! My clients are dealing with mental illness, drug and alcohol addiction and I see them out around town running, or riding their bikes. That in itself should be motivation enough...but still I struggle.

I refuse to drown, I refuse to choose defeat....I will find something to pull me to shore.